eating meat again.

so i started eating fish again. and i tried duck the other night. this is after about 8 years of not eating anything of the type. no meat or fish or any stocks or bases based on meat or fish. i did eat gelatin, which is made out of horse's hooves, because it is in so many desserts, enough said. but that's that. it all started in high school when i thought i would challenge myself to not eat any hamburgers for a while and it turned out to be really easy, so then i limited myself from more and more and finally gave up tuna fish, my favorite, around age 22 along with all stocks. so that was that. i held my ground for 8 years. yup, not eating any of that. nope. just holding my ground. and so recently that all got a little boring. stagnant. and life in general just got a little boring and lame. other people stopped delivering so i started i guess. and i started with food of course. i first just tried a bite of a co-worker's tuna melt sandwich and the tuna made my teeth squeaky clean feeling and i tasted chewy on my teeth. interesting. fun. so the next day i tried a cream of wild rice with salmon. eh. alright. i don't know if i really cared for the salmon flavor all that much. it was just strong, maybe that's the word i'm looking for, i don't know but i'm still intrigued enough to explore that again. so i couple days later i tried a friend's scallop dish. yummy. fun. i liked the texture and sort of the none flavor of it. and by the way, can we talk about the none flavor for just a second here? because then i tried duck the other night. and it tasted like meat. period. it really didn't do much for me here or there. it seems really devoid of something essential. some, maybe, energy. i don't know. so that was that until tonight. i ordered a fried grouper sandwich and ate the whole thing. after a bit i got a little headache but it passed and when i was vacuuming i was alive, that vacuum didn't own me for once. and after work i had a beer and it tasted really good and now i'm really tired and maybe some of these things can be attributed to the massive fish intake or not. but i am excited to explore again tomorrow.