dreams last night

had a dream of a train wreck. i was on the train with other people and and we were cruising along and then we came to this part that i always thought was a bit scary, it was sort of like a roller coaster and we made it through, but on the other side were unassuming cars on the tracks. there was a mini van and another car or truck and they were coming towards us, indirectly, they didn't mean or be in the way or want to be in the way but they were and we crashed the shit out of them. immediately we, whoever i was with, could have been ryan, were on the scene and there were a couple of babies that weren't in baby seats but were laying in the back of the mini van dazed, along with everyone else that was in the car. i picked up one of the babies right away and ended up toting that baby along for the rest of the dream. at some points that baby sort of merged with my body and resembled a small sack of rice or something, but when people asked about it it would form back into a baby like it was totally cool that that happened. and then i was with ryan and i got to love him. i melted all over him and kissed and cooed on his back. he let me. i dominated him, not to have power, but because i didn't know any other way and he took it. i just needed to do it.